Saturday, December 31, 2016

Set Our Hearts on Fire

There are updates I want to share, like Ezra's nursery theme, but as this is my last post for 2016, I prayed about sharing something a bit more impactful. Today my Chloe + Isabel team leader shared a story I found to be very thought provoking and empowering. As I pondered this story I'm about to share, I kept hearing this "small voice" telling me to think deeper about it. Here is the story:

Two physicians late in years...we'll call them Charles + Isadore, old friends from medical school, were visiting at Charles house one winter evening. Isadore had retired several years prior. Charles was still treating patients. 
As they were catching up, Isadore asked Charles how he could still be working after all these years.
Charles asked Isadore to try and blow out the candle on the table. Isadore did this with minimal effort. Charles then asked Isadore to blow out the fire in the fireplace. Isadore laughed, tried, but of course could not.
Charles said to Isadore..."When your passion for what you are doing is like that of a candle, it can easily be blown out with the winds of life. When your passion is that of a fire, it withstands these winds. That is how I feel about helping my patients."


That's good, right? As I said, I've been thinking about this story and kept feeling like there was something more for me to get out of it. This got me to thinking about my faith. Those of you who have followed my journey throughout the last few years, or if you just know my heart, know that I am a Christian. I'll be honest, writing that feels so awkward because the very label has so much meaning to so many different people. Some are inspired and encouraged to find a sister in Christ. Others are cautious, fearing my judgement. Still others are completely turned off and no longer view me as a person worth their time. Either way, the truth remains that I wholeheartedly believe Jesus Christ is the Messiah and will return again. I accepted Him as my Lord and Savior many years ago and I am not ashamed of that.

I started playing with the above story and decided that a few substitutions were in order to give me peace about the "deeper meaning" I've been compelled to find in it. My version reads as follows:

Two church goers late in years...we'll call them Charles + Isadore, old friends from school, were visiting at Charles' house one winter evening. Isadore had left the church several years prior. Charles was still an active member.
As they were catching up, Isadore asked Charles how he could still be such a devoted follower of Christ after all these years. Charles asked Isadore to try and blow out the candle on the table. Isadore did this with minimal effort. Charles then asked Isadore to blow out the fire in the fireplace. Isadore laughed, tried, but of course could not. 
Charles said to Isadore..."When your faith in Christ is like that of a candle, it can easily be blown out with the winds of life. When your faith is that of a fire, it withstands these winds. That is how I feel about helping my Savior."



My businesses, my blog, my jobs, and my personal life are all centered on my faith. There are times I fear my faith might be like a candle, but there's always a burning ember that reignites and restarts the fireplace within my soul. My prayer for everyone, now and always, is that you will find (if you haven't already) The Spark that will set your spirit ablaze! 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! 

Sunday, December 18, 2016

Ezra The Scribe

It's been a few weeks since I last posted and much has happened. At 22 weeks I'm definitely showing and had my anatomy scan ultrasound. My HunnyBee's movements are getting stronger and more frequent, particularly in the evenings! If you've been following me on social media, you may have seen my Facebook Live video, where I announced we are having our second boy. He will be named Ezra...

Before I move on with sharing details of why we chose Ezra as our HunnyBee's name, I need to share a confession. As I looked through this blog, I was re-inspired by the transparent stories of all the DiversAble Models on here and I remember committing to be just as open and honest with my own story. That said, I have to admit I felt a twinge of disappointment that I'm not having a girl. Then I felt extreme guilt for feeling this way! I have so many friends who would give anything to just have a healthy baby, yet here I was feeling disappointment that I'm having a boy. I praise God for good friends because as I expressed these feelings to one of them, she gave me permission to feel what I felt. It was so good to have someone say, "It's ok to feel that way." So if you read this sweet friend, THANK YOU <3

Now that I'm passed that initial emotion, I'm actually quite excited at the knowledge that I'll be the only female in my house! Even at 2 years old, my Little Bear is very protective of me. It will be beautiful to have my 3 men caring for and protecting me. I love all three so very much!

Ezra Dean ____ Frantz! We're working on a second middle name (it's a thing for us), but we love what we have so far. First, we love how Xavier and Ezra sound together. They're both strong names that we haven't run into often around here. Ezra is also a biblical name. You can learn about Ezra in the Old Testament in the Book of Ezra and Nehemiah, but he was a scribe and a priest. After the Babylonian exile, Ezra lead a group of Judean exiles back to Jerusalem. He reintroduced the Torah and enforced it's laws. Before Jesus was born, following God's laws was the only way to really ensure His blessings (thank God for Jesus because we all fall so short of the law!).
Now, why is this important to us and naming our son?

We believe words and names are powerful/meaningful. Many names in the Bible had meanings, but we like the significance of the name Ezra. Ezra of the Bible helped bring people home. He then taught them and helped ensure they followed God's ways. We hope both our son's will learn to love God and follow His ways. Our prayer is that out of their love for God, they will teach others His ways and bring people to "the cross," where they will find Jesus and be saved! These are big prayers and hopes, but nothing is too great for my God.

There you have it...My most current update. Stay tuned because we've already chosen HunnyBee's nursery theme and we're upgrading Little Bear to a "big boy room" with a new theme ;-)

Here's a clue to our HunnyBee's nursery theme...guesses are welcome: